This is much more of a personal reflection than most of my articles. It started as a journal entry, but through sharing it, you may relate and find value in this too. Some may even find this outlandish, but it is my genuine self-expression and I know that others can relate at least the general themes to their own experiences.
These are chaotic times we live in, where outer and inner realities are going through rapid changes. If you’re experiencing any overwhelming changes in your life, especially if you’re someone on the spiritual path who’s undergoing a rapid expansion of consciousness, just know that you’re not alone.
Much, much love.
– Stevie P
I’ve expanded my consciousness so rapidly over the last 8 months, since I quit my job, traveled the world, wrote two books and had innumerable mindblowing experiences. As with any rapid change, it can be difficult to manage at times. And it came to a crescendo over the last couple weeks.
Looking back, as hindsight is 20/20, I was honestly walking the thin line between genius and insanity for the last 2 weeks or so, up until this weekend. I was accessing knowledge, wisdom and understanding that was so intensely profound, to the point of being overwhelming. I was navigating territory completely unfamiliar to me, making me feel lost and honestly a bit afraid.
I felt what the people who want to just check out of society feel – drug addicts, suicidal people, everyone deemed as misfits and outcasts – I felt what they feel and felt it poignantly. It’s extremely difficult to bring that feeling through the filter of language. I also felt what the “crazy geniuses” feel as well, being so far gone in the realms of creative inspiration that physical reality seems almost irrelevant. I was imbalanced, however, clinging to the creative muse, instead of letting her come and go as she pleases, which is her very nature.
Note: I’m not sayin I’m inherently smarter than anyone else. We’re all geniuses in different ways. Most people just haven’t unlocked this potential.
I’ve been seeing the world from a subtle outside looking in perspective. And from this perspective, it’s so easy to slip into runaway ungroundedness and lose all touch with this realm of reality. When you have a different perspective than the norm (which is akin to being asleep), it’s like waking up alone in a new house before dawn. Yes, you’re conscious and awake, yet you’re confused and stumbling around in the dark. I spent the last couple weeks getting my footing and groping through the vivid darkness. But I’m now learning how to navigate with this new version of self.
Note: I’m using the term “asleep” not as a judgment, it’s just the best word to describe what I’m attempting to express. Everyone is on their own journey. There is no better or worse, just different. Who am I to judge someone else’s life?
Like Chuck Yeager said, “Just before you break through the sound barrier, the cockpit shakes the most.” My shaking and barrier breaking seems to have ended and now I’m flying smoothly again, just in a new domain of speed.
The lens that I’m viewing reality from was re-focused. It was blurry for a second, but I feel intuitively that I’m starting to see more clearly than ever.
I’ve learned this powerful lesson: If you ground yourself and master your mind, you can have that “higher” perspective without being lost in it; while still walking the Earth, being here now (in 3D reality) and enjoying the good things it does have to offer. Our selves are always changing, and sometimes powerful changes can throw off your balance. So it’s important to allow change to happen, while finding your balance through the process.
I found balance by getting out in nature every day, spending time with family and socializing more. Grounding barefoot on the Earth has also been a godsend for me.
I’ve also come to the realization that I need to connect with more people that I can learn from, who can help me along my journey. I’ve been pushing the boundaries so hard and for so long that, at times, it feels as if I’m alone in the depths of space. But I know there are other people who have already been through what I’m going through, which is true for any and all facets of the human experience. We’re all unique aspects of the same oneness helping each other out.
A message that I received during a Merkaba activation in Costa Rica keeps coming back to me; an image of a tree appeared to me and said “Stay grounded. You already have all of the answers.”
And it couldn’t be any truer.
Gratitude fills my heart.
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